Updated: Jan 18, 2020
The more I grow in my walk with Christ, the more He teaches me through His Word. What I’ve been learning lately is that instead of just reading the Bible and agreeing with what it says mentally, I need to believe every word through faith and apply myself to what it says. One verse that I’ve seemed to completely ignore is Psalm 139:14.
I hear so many girls talk about how low their self-esteem is and how they don’t have any self-worth. I’ve even said these things myself. But then I think about how truly selfish that makes me. There has been so many times when I’ve walked into a room full of people and automatically had thoughts about what people would think of my clothes, my hair, what I might say or what I might do. Looking at that line of thinking, I realize how much I actually think of myself! Yikes! Thinking about myself so much can’t be glorifying to God in any way since His Word says to set our minds on things above (Colossians 3:2) and also to think about things that are true, honorable, just, pure, lovely and commendable (Phil 4:8). After taking note of how much I think about myself and how insecure I seem to be, I thought about this verse in Psalm 139: “I will praise You because I have been remarkably and wonderfully made.” I finally decided to take this verse for what it says instead of pushing it to the side. This verse says that I have been REMARKABLY made! And not just that, I have been WONDERFULLY made, too! So what do I have to worry about? God’s Word affirms me. My husband approves of me. All the insecurity I feel about who I am should be pushed out of the way when I think about this verse, and also when I think about how secure I am in Christ. Nothing in this world or in the one to come could ever separate me from Christ. So I am starting to teach myself to find security in those facts. I’m starting to pay more attention to my thoughts so that I don’t get caught up in selfish and prideful thinking. I am not worthy enough to be thought of 24/7 like that and neither is anyone else I know. Now when I walk into a room full of people, I try to retrain myself to think about the people I’m about to speak with… thoughts like, “What could this person be struggling with?” or “What can I say to encourage this person today?” Trying to retrain my thoughts is very hard, but I don’t want to spend my life focusing on myself and I sure don’t want to spend my life living in fear of what people think about the way I look, talk or act. I want to follow the verses in Philippians 2:3b-4 that say, “… In humility consider others as more important than yourselves. Everyone should look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others.” If you keep reading the verses after these, you see how selfless Jesus truly was, and that’s exactly how I want to be.